August 2015
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its been a bit topsy turvey

hello everyone how are you doing??? me?????  well lets see here.. my mood is completely non existent because the past couple days have been really strenuous because of a super duper mission i went on in order to make it so i can only come in here alone. I have to say that i just need to be able to go and lay down and get all rested up for Mother’s day TODAYYYYYYY!!!!OH which reminds me in most book stores they are making these books for mother and daughter to fill out together like a questionaire and get to spend some quality time together and communicate with a little bit of a special twist!!! I hate addmitting to this but i still need to go and buy the book for my mom and i and for my sister and her to fill out together as well….i am honestly the biggest procrastinator i have ever been subjected to and I will end up giving myself a heart attack by the time i’m 25 butttttttttthats not for another couple of years ahead so i guess it will be something to worry over later.
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is really time to wake up….again???

well the rain is pissing like cats and dogs all over the damn place outside and the sound of a blood curdling scream coming from my alarm clock is what i woke up to. Well woke up is an understatement i kinda peeled my eyelids apart since they were glued from tears and mascara that never got washed off last night and threw my alarm clock into the back corner of my closet where it still is. I’ll have to remember not to step on the plug when I’m going to be running around late for yet another thing i need to get to today. OH and i’d like to officially name my alarm sound as the ((DRUM ROLL PLEASE)) THE BANSHEE ALERT!!! For future references i may make of that enemy sound i will be referring to it as so. HEEEE I’m rather pleased with myself for that one. So i guess i’m already feeling better about the day now that everyone knows what a piss poor mood i awoke in….IT CAN ONLY GO UPHILL FROM HERE….theoretically. Wish me luck and don’t forget to!!! Continue reading “is really time to wake up….again???” »

ohhh how long the night is

once again I’m up awake from god knows what…i can’t sleep because i can’t stop thinking…i hate thinking and thinking about everything…when do i just everything to stop??? i can’t keep up or I’m to ahead of myself. I have a life where i feel like I’ll never make it back to being a normal well some what crazy but in a good way. I never feel complete unless i’m with Keeks and when i am with her i don’t want it to ever end and when it has to come to an end then its shatters my entire world all over again. NO ONE gets why i can’t just suck it up and deal with it…its not something you deal with…would you tell a person thats been brutally shot in the chest 7435629873465928734 times to relax?? NOPE the answer is no no matter what you say you can’t tell a shooting victim to take it easy while they bleed to death,….wellllllllllllllllllllllll what do you expect me to do calmly bleed out and turn blue and cold??? noo thanks not for me. Continue reading “ohhh how long the night is” »

the death of osama

my opinion about the death of osama bin laden was mixed…im happy because the era of terror which he played a major role in can now come to a close….but i’m not so extremely happy i’d run around holding a banner saying F*&% OSAMA and cheer about his death….

here is a quote that a wise man once said :

“I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.” — Martin Luther King, Jr

I believe we should all take notes.

a little bit closer to me

Tell me how I went and got my self this way
I wanna be like my heart says
I wanna look in the mirror and see that glow
I wanna be young
I wanna be fun
I wanna be everything I can’t be
I wanna be the wife to the man those fools took away from me
I can’t help but have so much hate
I blame so much to their stupid mistakes
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